Over the past week, I have been in a spiritual block. I haven’t heard the Lord speaking to me. I have struggled in my worship. I have struggled in my prayer. The bitterness started to consume me.
“LORD, WHERE ARE YOU?”
We like to have random nights of worship in our home. Last night was one of those nights and I spontaneously volunteered to teach. Panic set in…I’m in a block. I have absolutely no idea where to begin. Cranked up some worship music, held my Bible in my lap, closed my eyes and just allowed. “Holy Spirit, I just need one word. Fill me with one word that each person in this room needs right now.”
My word…..APPROVAL
I have a section in my Bible that gives scripture references based on key words. I looked up approval, and nothing was there. I found myself being led to the book of Matthew, and this is where I landed.
I thought about these two blind men, and what strong holds they might have. We aren’t worthy…we can’t do what others can…we aren’t contributing to society…what do people think of us… I compare these strong holds to mine. What do people think of me…do I do a good enough job…am I good enough…do I worship weird…is everyone looking at me…
What if I was on that road? When Jesus was near, would I have shouted out to him? Or would I have allowed my self doubt to over rule and I quietly watch him walk by. These men chose to shout. “Lord, son of David, have mercy on us!”
The crowd then yelled at them. I can imagine that moment of standing there. Do I allow these people to shut me down? Do I give into my need for approval and just disappear in the crowd?
These men did not. The shouted again, even louder.
Jesus stopped, touched their eyes, and instantly they could see.
How many blessings are we missing out on by being tied down by our strong holds? What are we missing out on by worrying about approval from others? Can you imagine if you stepped out in Faith from that strong hold what Jesus could do in your life?